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Saturday, September 25, 2004

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 01:01:31 GMT

i'm done with this world..i have had enough..no more needs for me to live.

Monday, September 20, 2004

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 20:45:33 GMT

Mirror mirror on the wall.

Is this who i am to them all?

Underneath all my falseness.

Can they see through my lies at all?

How much longer can I lay quite in my pain?

How much longer can I keep that forced smile?

Sunday, September 12, 2004

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 23:24:51 GMT

school starts tomm..agg...its back to hell time..i hate it i hate it i hate it..i have to wear a fucking uniform this year...and this school isnt even fucking private. i hate it i hate it i hate it...i dont wanna go back..blah..back to torture and these stupid idiots we call classmates...damn it ..i wish i can kill the person to invented school..ah

Monday, September 06, 2004

Mon, 06 Sep 2004 00:13:21 GMT

How can we mortals endure this endless torment of , eating , Drinking , pissing , and shiting. And then to get sick and to heal again. And live this vicious cycle all over again. Until the day we die.How can we live like this. To work so hard for something for most of our lives. And in the end only losing it to death. We live and being children into this world just to suffer as we once had and in the end they will die the same as we died.What is the point to out lives?To suffer and then to die. Is this really what we were made for?

~Cinxia~

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Thu, 02 Sep 2004 01:38:01 GMT

i n f o r m a t i o n
1. name: c
2. single or taken: taken
3. sex: yes please..jkcfemale
4. birthday: may 11
5. deathday: donft know yet
6. siblings: 1 brother

7. hair color: brown like
8. eye color: dark brown
9. shoe size: 7
10. height: 5'8

r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends?: stephanie..sophie
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: yes

f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: ercercer..hot topic
2. any tattoos or piercings: pierced ears
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: no
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: vo5
3. what are you most scared of?: ..umcI donft really knowcmaybe..erc
5. who is the last person that called you?: steve
6. where do you want to get married?: church..or a beach
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 2
8. what would you change about yourself?: I wanna be thinner..i guess

f a v o r i t e s
1. color: black , sliver.
2. food: cfood is nastyc
3. boys names: ercercSatantoncTimothyc
4. girls names: LexxycImogen
5. subjects in school: artcEnglish
6. animals: Cats
7. sports: none
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: no
2. smoked?: Yesconly ciggs.
3. bungee jumped?: hell donft I wish
4. made yourself throw up?:no
5. skinny dipped?: no
6: ever been in love?: yes.
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: hehehehehecin school only
8. pictured your crush naked?: no I saw it.
9. actually seen your crush naked?: yep
10. cried when someone died?: yea
11. lied: yea

12. fallen for your best friend?: ercno
13. been rejected?: I think so
14. rejected someone?: yea
15. used someone?: no
16. done something you regret?: yep..a lot of them

c u r r e n t
clothes: loose pantscloose shirtcall black
make-up: no
annoyance: Fat girls in tight ass clothes n when u look all u can c is fat rolls hanging offcn rap music.
smell: hmmc.air
favorite group/artist: Evanescence
desktop picture: er..none
book you're reading: The tale of the body thief.
in cd player: Marilyn Manson - Holywood
in dvd player: none.

l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: erc.ercercthe cat
hugged:
you imed:
you yelled at: No one
you kissed: Ifm not telling ..ifm not telling ..mauhahahac

o p p o s i t e | s e x
what attracts you: eyes..haircskin.
last person you slow danced with:

makes you laugh the most: steph..
who do you have a crush on: no one
d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: havnt in a while.
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: sometimes
wish you were younger: hell no
cried because someone said something to you?: ermcyea.

N u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: I donft knoc2 times..
of hearts i have broken: none
of guys ive kissed: ercI donft kno..likec2
of girls ive kissed:ercnone
of continents you've been to?: un..
of tight friends: 2 or 3
of cds i own: too many to count
of scars on my body: ooo a lot

F i n a l | Q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like fillings these out?: when Ifm bored outta my fucking mind n have nothing better to do
2. gold or silver: sliver
3. what was the last film you saw at the movies? A.V.P..hell it was stupid
7. favorite cartoon/anime?: the simpons
8. what did you have for breakfast this morning? nothing
10. who would you love being locked in a room with?: ..steve..steph or sophie..but..er..
11. could you live without your computer?: NO
12. would you color your hair? yea
13. could you ever get off the computer?: if I didnft hav to..iw ont
14. habla espanol? Si , tu eres un mardito estupido
15. how many people are on your buddy list?: ....
16. drink alcohol? nope

Thursday, August 26, 2004

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 22:38:00 GMT

when i go to sleep tonight...i wont wake up tomorrow . there is nothing left to live for. when i lay down to my sleep tonight.there will be no tomorrow.

~Cinxia~

Monday, August 23, 2004

Mon, 23 Aug 2004 01:14:59 GMT

a friend of mine is engaged...wow...i'm still kinda in shock i dont kno why..i guess the idea has just sank in..wow..his engaged..but i'm happy for him and his gf..congrats timothy.

Friday, August 20, 2004

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 01:29:36 GMT

A little about yourselfE
>< Given Name:: BBB
>< Gender:: female
>< Age:: 15
>< Date of Birth:: 5/11
>< Marital Status:: long term relationship
>< Hair Color:: black
>< Hair Type:: long
>< Eye color:: brown
>< Skin Color:: whitecyellow..pale..erc
>< Height:: 5'8h
>< AIM/AOL Screen Name::
FavoritesE
>< Word(s):: er , fuck u , go away , um.
>< Language:: English
>< Food:: ..umc
>< Drink:: pepsi , sprit
>< Band:: Evanescence , korn , marily manson , Linkin park.
>< Singer:: Amy Lee
>< T.V Show:: simpsons
>< Movie:: resident evil
>< Pet:: JiJi ( kitty)
>< Animal:: cats
>< Number:: 11
>< Telephone Number:: ..erc
>< Holiday:: halloween
>< Weather:: ..rain.
>< Flower:: red roses.
>< Scent:: fresh aircor axe touch.
>< Celebrity:: nonecthey can all go die..hehe
>< DVD:: .er..donft kno..yea..donft kno.
Have you ever?
>< Kissed the same sex?: nopec
>< Had Sex?: cerc
>< Gotten detention?: Yes
>< Got Grounded?: nope I get hit not grounded.
>< Cheated On Someone?: no
>< Were Caught Cheating?: wat did I juz say..no.
>< Lost Your Wallet?: I donft hav a wallet..lol
>< Lost Your Cellular Phone?: I donft have one of those neither..
>< Spied On Your Mom And Dad?: ew..ewcewcew..never..
>< Were Caught Doing something wrong?: nope..hehehe.
>< Cursed At Your Parents?: I wishedc
>< Been In love?: yes
>< Been Loved?: I donft know.
>< Used a Friend?: never
>< Been Used By A Friend?: I donft know..i hope not.
>< Lost a Friend?: no..i donft have many friend..i hold on to them.
>< Been Cheated On?: I donft know.
>< Been To the Emergency Room?: yes.
>< Broken a Bone?: yes..

Are you...
>< Lesbian/Gay?: er..no..
>< Bisexual?: noc
>< Somewhat Attractive?: hell no..
>< Depressed?: its had became a part of life.
>< In Pain?: yescalmost everyday.
>< Worried?: Yes
>< In Shock?: not right now.
>< Exited?: no..
>< Happy?: ..rarely..
>< Obsessed?: with only one personcmaybe 2..
>< A Drug Addict?: no.
>< A Smoker?: No
>< An Alcoholic?: I drink sometimes
>< A Loner?: yes..and I like it that way.
>< Loved?: I think.
>< Hated?: probably..yea..
>< Wanted?: probably notc.
>< Unwanted?: I dnt know.
>< Shy?: yes quite a bitcok..alot
>< Bored?:yes everyday.
>< Having Fun?: cer..i swearcur stupidcsee above.
>< Listening To Music?: yes ,..korn
>< Watching T.V?: nope
>< On the Computer?: how the hell do u think Ifm doing this
>< Doing Homework?: ur funny..ha.
>< Single?: nope.
>< Taken?: cI swear wat the hell did I juz say?

Choose:
>< Chocolate or Vanilla?: chocolate
>< Dog or Cat?: cat
>< Sleeping or Awake?: Sleeping
>< Sunny or Gloomy?: Sunny
>< Dark or Light?: Dark
>< Pretty or Ugly?: depents on wat ur talking about thocmm..i donft kno
>< Wanted or Unwanted?: depends
>< Burgers or Hot Dogs?: neither
>< Sitting or Standing Up?: Standing Up
>< Computer or T.V?: Computer
>< Noise or Silence?: Noise
>< Boys or Girls?: boys cgirls r good friends.
>< Virgin or Non-Virgin?: does it matter?
>< Slut or Decent?:..wtf
>< Nice or Mean?: a bit of both. Or their gonna bore me
>< Stupid or Smart?: smart, I donft like dumb asses
>< Shy or Funny?: both
>< Rain or Snow?: mild rain is cool, rain is cool..snow is..er..
>< Cold or Warm?: warm, but not 2 much
>< Alone or Companioned?: alone
>< School or No School?: both..
>< Enemy or Friend?: Friend
>< Cat Fight or Fist Fight?: Fist Fight
>< Gum or Candy?: candy
>< Juice or Soda?: Soda
>< Beer or Cigarette?: beer
>< Old or Young?: Young
>< Boring or Fun?: Fun
>< Numbers or Letters?: letters
>< Bath or Shower?: both is good.
>< Dry or Wet?: Dry
>< Sex, Drugs, or Rock and Roll?: yes.

Currently...
>< Wearing?: clothes, tshirt n jeans
>< Watching?: nothing
>< Listening To?: korn
>< Staring At?: screen
>< Eating?: nothing
>< Drinking?:water
>< Smelling?: me
>< Tasting?: my mouth
>< Thinking?: my painful obssesions
>< Mood?: pissy
Who was the last person...
>< You Talked To?: does typing over the net count..if it does then its ronald....
>< You Listened To?: cno one/
>< You Looked At?: my cat..
>< You Touched?: >< You Hugged?:
>< You Kissed?:
>< Had Sex With? : wtf?
>< You Instant Messaged?
>< You Text messaged?: no one
>< You Were On the Phone With?: stephanie
>< You Lost?: cIfm not saying.
>< You Missed?: sophie
>< You Needed?: I donft kno
>< You Loved:

>< You Wanted?: no1 at all
>< You cried with?:no one..i cry with my razor n tears
>< You Laughed With?: dunno
>< Yelled At?: mother
>< Who Pissed You Off?: parents
>< Who Made You Happy?: no1
>< Who Made You Sad?: everyne
>< Who Made You Cry?: timothy..
>< You Said Hello To?:
>< You Said Goodbye To?: raven

Tuesday, August 17, 2004

Tue, 17 Aug 2004 23:05:39 GMT

Dont frown , because you will never know who is falling in love with your smile.

Friday, August 13, 2004

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 01:10:33 GMT

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK...SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT...HATE HATE HATE HATE..FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK ...MOTEHRFUCKER MOTHERFUCKER...MOTHERFUCKER..MOTHERFUCK....PIECE OF SHIT PIECE OF SHIT PIECE OF SHIT....FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK....ok i'm done